guddammit

2006-11-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

the final photo to mark the end of a happy occassion.. everyone.. the brothers.. with our happy groom.. our group of friends for 20 years.. happy moment.. captured in this photo..

2006-11-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

testing the camera.. trying the delay start.. so tat we dun haf to ask others to help us take photos.. and it works..

2006-11-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

playing the fool in front of the old folks sitting beside us..

2006-11-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

engene hasn't been sleeping well.. looks at his dark eye rings.. but finally he has completed his presentations and projects for the semester and he can sleep well now..

2006-11-01T21:41:00.001+08:00

we are bored at the lobby...

2006-11-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

the beautiful bride.. and ya, she has a big group of sisters... preparing the big event with her..

2006-11-01T21:40:00.001+08:00

zhizhong.. graciously letting his picture taken...

2006-11-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

wads marvin doing at my pri sch fren's wedding dinner??? haha, he knew them through me la.. through the kopi and drinking sessions.. thats y he is also here.. as a buddy..

2006-11-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

weibin and his girlfriend, michelle.. together for quite a long time liao.. i tink they can make it la.. so long liao.. and michelle is a nice girl.. well-liked by our group of brudders.. ;) and weibin has been thinking of settling down.. wad a perfect combination..

2006-11-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

jianhao and his girlfriend.. nuttin to say about them.. hahaha!! the girlfriend doesn't leave a realli good impression.. and well, none of my business also.. :)

2006-11-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

taking pictures like this.. seems to be the trend tat night.. lame~~

2006-11-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

trying to take a picture of eugene and my pic was taken also..

2006-11-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

endorphine was onli here for about 1 hour.. and she sang less than 6 songs i think.. most of the time, she was joking, talking.. and singing other songs by other artistes... but well, she really can sing..

2006-11-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

she looks nice like this..

2006-11-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

see the crowd tat nite?? so packed and warm tat day...

2006-11-01T21:24:00.001+08:00

not very well taken.. i have no idea why also..

2006-11-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

and well, actually she is quite pretty ar.. a beautiful young girl with a powerful voice..

2006-11-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

endorphine.. famous thai rock band with a female lead singer.. live in singapore.. and we were there..

2006-11-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

me, bernard, and lynn...

2006-11-01T21:21:00.001+08:00

closeup of marvin

2006-11-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

and shamaine.. and shawn..

2006-11-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

another of marvin's friend..

2006-11-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

uploaded the pictures quite late.. this was taken in july..

long time no see...

2006-11-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

times are bad.. money running low.. :( my mood is directly affected by the amount of money i haf.. and so.. my mood nowadays are jus like my wallet.. looking glum.. and lifeless.. colourless..

today, i just transferred the photos tat i have taken for the past few months over to my computer.. so this post.. will have lotsa photos.. and well, i dun tink i will write much.. shall let the photos do the talking..

about 2-3 months back, i was asked by my mom to help her deliver some food to an old folks' home.. and i went. with her.. although i had jus climbed onto my bed in the morning trying to sleep after coming home from clubbing. the old men are quite pitiful.. they onli get to enjoy such "sumptous" meals once a month. and these meals are jus curry rice, or nasi lemak.. on normal days, they onli get those kind of $1 a packet rice..

but anyway, the budget of the house is quite restricted also... so they realli haf no choice..

ITS BEEN A WHILE..

2006-10-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

i have been busy.. and lazy sometimes.. and jus canot be bothered to write anything.. probably its becos i have things more important to see to these days.. and the stress from work.. haizzz...

luck's not quite good lately.. i was not the winner of the $5.6million TOTO lottery for the mid autumn festival special draw.. :( and i was already thinking of how to spend the $5.6million when i was holding onto the ticket.. haha

work wise, been kinda stressful.. its just hard to get the momentum started.. sales not coming in.. the pressure settling in.. plus some external factors.. hopefully, its gonna be a better week this time.. i need to get the sales coming in real fast.. its getting late..

been listening and getting to know more thai songs. me and shawn has fallen in love with punch. a thai singer.. her songs are so nice.. and perhaps sad.. ( actually we duno wad the song is abt.. but the mtv show her crying.. so i guess its a sad song...) and we even got a thai dj to burn a cd of popular thai songs for us.. tats so cool rite?? there are other nice songs in the cd which we haven find out the title yet.. attached the song here.. enjoy it!! love it jus like me.. :)

disappear

2006-09-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

too tired and lazy to blog recently.. anyway.. things have been looking well for me.. nuttin disastrous yet.. :)

so, i am still alive.. planning my bangkok trip once more.. and contemplating whether to buy ticket in advance for feb 2008 as well.. since tiger airways having a promotion of $0.88 per way. tat makes it $94 for a 2 way airfare including taxes.. so jayen, if u happen to read this, please contact me or email me asap.. we r waiting for ur confirmation.. the BIG trip has been changed.. due to certain reasons.. so now, we shall settle for bangkok instead where u can do lotsa shopping.. and hurry ar.. email me fast as this is onli available for a few days.. and the beginning of the year is a busy period for banks.. which means mroe business for me.. maybe go for a short trip.. jus 3 days. and oh, there is a new bangkok airport? shall see how good it is..

internal struggle

2006-08-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

well, finished with wad i gotta do.. the handing over of my stuff to my old company.... settling with the exit interview etc etc.. in one day.. i travelled from shenton way.. to towner.. to orchard.. and then to towner again.. and then to amk.. feels good to be able to finish my stuff in one day.. but tat also means tat i haf returned my laptop for good.. meanwhile, i am shopping for a laptop.. perhaps during the IT fair.. or after tat.. no choice.. used to a laptop now.. lying on bed in my room, lazily checking mails and watching internet tv with eyes half closed.. haha~~

to touch on someting more intimate.. i duno if its the timing or the current psychological situation. but i realised tat, although there is this girl who has already made known her feelings pretty openly.. actions shown.. a promising relationship seems in place.. dreams slowly visualising.. but.. but.. i feel there is this barrier.. i duno wads causing this.. once bitten twice shy?? i duno.. or i am not ready?? could it be tat i am broke, causing me this insecurity.. ?? damn my ex company for delaying my pay.. damn my current company for bundling my half mth's pay into next pay day.. although tat means i be getting a bigger paycheck, or u can say 2 paychecks.. tat also means i am pretty tight in budget this month.. painful suffering.. i admit.. this girl is realli veri good.. too good.. tat i canot find myself to believe too much.. i canot bring myself to trust another one and be let down.. but currently.. i am jus keeping mum.. not saying wad and how i truely feel to her.. i dun wana hurt her.. and well, i am not sure if i can just accept another person so fast.. its not fair to her.. cos i feel its partly becos she was there when i was hurt.. but i duno if i haf really gotten over her.. i noe i promised myself tat i will not harbour any thoughts of being together again.. and given another chance if there is.. i am afraid.. yes.. i seldom admit tat i am afraid.. but well.. the feeling is not good.. right now.. i guess i jus gotta cool down and concentrate on my work.. my training.. and when everything stabilises.. shall see where i go from there.. jus gotta take one step at a time.. even though time is running out for me.. my 2-year money plan is still running and honestly.. i am falling behind schedule.. i haf been slowing down.. and i gotta be firm this time.. no one is able to divert me from my money-making path again~~ yes! i will be money-faced now! everything to me is abt money now! cos i noe.. money will never betray me.. haha!! and i wana realise my dreams..

right now, using the desktop which i haf neglected.. and the computer took a damn long time to warm up.. keyboard getting used to my fingers again.. maybe this desktop felt scared of me also! scared tat i will forsake it once more.. when a laptop comes along.. but well, this desktop shall be where i store my BIG files.. my pics.. my mp3s.. and i shall let this once loving desktop of mine like me and work properly again.. haha!! consider this paragraph a load of crap pls..

alrite.. time to sleep.. gotta get to the bus stop at 7am.. its a long journey again..

is this bliss? or something wrong..

2006-08-28T07:11:00.000+08:00

have been going for training for my work from the past week. very boring. there is not internet access and its right at tampines.. in the very east! takes me a total of 1 and half hr to reach there on the dot. i have to leave my house by 7am. and board the bus at 7.10am to the interchange and change another bus to tampines. the bus usually arrives at 7.20am - 7.25am. and damn, the queue is always long with students and people going to work like me.. but luckily, they work in the nearby factories and i get to have seats when they go down. but well, usualli, when i am lucky, i find a seat and just sleep all the way to work.. haha!

well, in case u might wonder, y am i writing this now considering the time i post this.. now, i am having this bad headache.. a migraine.. it hurts when i stand up and walk around in the morning when i woke up. i duno y i got it.. i jus noe i dun like the feeling.. and i was told today's training has got some physical activities.. playing games to build teamwork tat kinda shit.. so i dun tink i shld be attending these activities.. well, now i am lying down while typing this.. its not so bad..

well, i haven told anyone much.. about the latest updates abt my life.. except jayen who went missing for so long on msn.. and i tink he got a shock.. and if the others knew... i tink they will get a shock too.. well.. i am not cursed.. its just tat she filled the empty void tat was unexpected vacanted.. maybe tats y i dun feel sad at all now.. and in fact, i am happy.. someone showering me with concern.. and calling me to check if i eaten.. waking me up in the morning.. etc etc.. and i duno if i like her or not.. i duno if its too early or not.. i duno if its right for us to be together or not.. but watever it is.. i noe tat i am happier mainly becos of her.. or maybe i shld say, she made me happier sooner than expected.. and realli never expected her to be the first one to console me.. not even my frens do... but she can call me and check on me, and telling me her experiences as well... maybe tats wad a heart to heart talk is.. and let me noe alot abt her from tat time on..

alrite.. i tink i shld take some medicine and go back for a short nap.. today is my last day using this laptop.. i duno how i am going to post in future while on the bed.. gotta wait till the comex.. and i can buy a new laptop at a cheaper price.. tats at the end of august ar.. still quite far.. i tink i shld buy after the comex.. whereby the stocks left after the IT fair should be slashed even further to clear the goods ar..

ok ok... later still gotta wake up to get mc, and going to meet her to eat lunch together.. and i gotta go home and take my laptop and return to my ex-bosses.. so its actualli an activities-filled day for me.. :) have a nice day everyone.. i hope i will..

too beautiful..

2006-08-19T09:03:00.000+08:00

people.. u must watch this.. this is seriously too beautiful to miss.. its simply breathtaking and i wish i was there.. really!! i realised i was missing out a lot and i think i gotta find out where tat place is.. the exact place..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ggc_foQKAHo

Full House "i think i"

2006-08-16T09:11:00.000+08:00

was trying to watch the mtv of a nice song.. soundtrack of a korean series.. and well, guess korean series are still kinda popular.. the soundtrack has different languages... this is the thai version...

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2006-08-16T09:10:00.000+08:00

well, this is the chinese version...

'>www.youtube.com/v/wrOMFt52cLM">

2006-08-16T09:09:00.000+08:00

this is the original...

'>http://www.youtube.com/v/gDxaI0ZGXts">

2006-08-16T09:08:00.000+08:00

this is korean version also.. but its anime.. Wah!! i din noe of this at all.. well, this anime version has a nice storyline.. pretty touching..

'>http://www.youtube.com/v/Lrm_rMJ51VY">

please!

2006-08-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

people! please watch this video!! seriously.. this clip is probably the most touching mv i have ever seen.. and probably it can move u to tears.. but the least it can do i guess.. is touch u.
view it and tell me wad ya think..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIpSb1jPSdo

Reader Digest..

2006-08-15T08:44:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a master who is an expert in the science of economical practice and never wastefully spent on things. Then there was a young man came to him, asking for his teaching on this expertise. The master then gave a chair to that young man to sit down and the other chair for himself. When they were both seated. The master said as the learning process would e carried out by talking only, so lighting would not be necessary. Then he told young man to put out the light. After that, the master heard the noise of cloth being scrubbed. So he reprimanded young man for not being respectful. Young man replied “ I think it is rather dark now, so it is not necessary to wear cloth since it could be wastefully scrubbed and become old too soon, that’s why I took it off”. Then the master said “ You’re so right. You’re now better than me. So, I don’t have anything more to teach you”.

By : Joker old man (Old time jokes. 2nd edition, p.27)
Reference : Anake Nawikamoon. Old time jokes. 2nd edition. Bangkok : Sang Dad, 1993.

fwah!!

2006-08-15T06:48:00.000+08:00

oh gosh!! i jus published tat post and viewed it.. its long!! shld be the second or third longest.. after my 2 lame study/ research posts.. about monday blues and spywares in the office.. haha!!! good stamina!!!

confessionsss

2006-08-15T06:18:00.000+08:00

well, kinda high now.. though not as high as last night.. probably cos i jus canot force myself to get tat drunk 2 nights in a row.. or just that my stomach canot take it?? my stomach felt weird tonight before i even started drinking just now.. but i thot it could be tat i was hungry.. so i jus grabbed some bun to eat from the convenience store.. Lim Kee Pau.. hmm.. not bad.. jus tat kinda ex.. $1.20 for a pau? hmm, too bad, convenience comes at a price.

alrite, honestly, i hold no hopes of her turning back, changing her mind.. cos i feel its kinda planned.. or perhaps the decision have been weighing on her mind for some time.. and perhaps its always there.. jus waiting for a spark to start it off... i duno.. and i will never noe.. watever it is.. if she is reading this.. no worries, i will fuck off from her life. jus wish tat she be happier without me.. jus take it tat we never met.. and i am sorry for wasting almost one year of her life. and causing the unhappiness which she never expected.

yes.. i did tried to hold back my tears.. yes.. i never cry.. no tears.. maybe they were wet for a while.. but no, i forced them back.. at least i never break my own promise to myself.. tat i will never ever cry for any girl.. anyone who dun deserve my affections.. it breaks my heart.. ya, my heart felt the pain.. the same feeling i got many years back.. tat dreadful feeling.. it came back. and i realised.. it always haunt me when i stay home.. at night alone, in my room, the pain jus stabbed my heart real hard.. i jus gotta get out of my room at night... numb myself and head back with a heavy head.. but well, dun worry, i noe i am getting better.. better with a beer belly now.. haha.. anyone likes guys with beer bellies?? hahaha~~

my army fren was not free to drink with me tonite, and the moment he hear my voice, he presume tat i was crying.. but i wasn't.. i was having a cold.. damn~~ and he said its alrite to cry.. but argh~~ he said he cried before also.. well, watever..

i headed to the pub myself.. alone.. trying to find people to drink with me.. hmm, qingyi and eric came and accompany after awhile.. and they r frens who r not tat close to me.. accompanying me when i need companion.. frens whom i thot are always there for me... instead told me to meet tomoro instead.. hmm, y not tell me to die another day?? some day when they r free to attend my funeral??? fuck! i got real pissed.. but well, used to it anyway.. in life, we can never realli trust anyone.. the onli one we can trust is ourselves.. so we gotta love ourselves more.. more than anyone else.. cos no one deserves it more than yourself.. a day while u r still living is worth celebrating.. so, pamper yourself..

thought of many things past 2 days.. thought of possible lies tat she could haf told me? thought of maybe there could be other reasons?? thought maybe i could haf handled the matter better?? maybe i can onli blame myself??? watever it is, lies it may be, or maybe its all my fault, it doesn't matter.. y shld i make myself more miserable by thinking of the consequences of a relationship of 2 persons alone?? it will onli make me worse.. it realli made me crazy last nite... questions weighing on my head.. people whom i duno cheering me up.. strangers toasting with me.. waitress bringing me plain water after i puked.. thinking back, wad a fool i haf been..

talking abt the questions in the head.. this guy reminded me of this story.. there is this guy who always walk to the coffeeshop i frequent. he always looks messy.. dirty.. and crazy.. and someone told me before of his history.. he is graduate in accounting from NTU.. and he was about to get married when his soon-to-be wife jus ran off.. i am not sure if she ran off with another guy.. but she jus ran off.. so, this guy jus turned crazy.. and not working since after.. and now, i always see him approaching customers for a cigarette.. and i am not sure if he deserves my pity or not.. but it jus shows matters of the heart could be too hard for some individuals to handle.. and perhaps, as wad i always believed, selfish persons are the onli ones who can be always happy in this world... cos in their world, wad they feel is really wad mattered to them.. they simply want the best for themselves and just neglect wad others feel..

believe in karma.. cos its true.. i been selfish before.. hurt people before.. and it comes back to me.. and they come in multiples.. dun understand?? try it.. u will understand someday. ok.. haf been trying to exhaust my drunken stupor.. hope u peeps understand wad i typing.. i tink u peeps can.. cos i am not drunk tonite... and i double checked my spelling.. haha!! do u think u noe me?? well, now i noe i seriously dun and i thot i haf been trying to.. and its too late.

time to sleep.. and wake up to a whole new day.. awaits nightfall and seek a new hiding place..

post mortem

2006-08-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

Thanks samantha for sending me your concern thru sms.. thanks suiyi for ur asking.. shawn and marvin got drunk with me last nite.. hahaha!! but well, i dun really wan people to console me.. i dun like it.. it makes me feel bad.. makes me even worse.. pls dun ask me wad happened also.. everything's over and there is realli nuttin much to help also.. cos its all decided.. no chance of turning back.. but thanks anyway.. appreciate the concern.

well, i shall revert back.. to the old me.. the old ways. the happy ways.. the place where no one gets hurt.. :) and i get to be the one hurting people!

meanwhile.. i will delete off all the haunting memories.. the ones maketh me a love retard. jus like deleting the corrupted file..

shall post the latest updates of my happenings..

superficial world..

2006-08-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

we ended on the day we first met and one month short of a year together. guess this dream expired before its due. relationships never exists.. for today, i have learnt that relationships in this world are fake. relationships are in this world to force u to learn, to wake up from ur sleep, from ur dream.. to make u realise that onli in your stupid dream, things can be that perfect.

i will not do anything to bring back a relationship that can be so fragile even when i put in efforts. and i dun like the feeling of being at the beck and call.. being dumped when there is no feeling, being called back when you found that u still haf feelings. being dumped when ur parents dun like it, being called back when u decided to give it a try. it sucks.. i will never let anyone do that to me anymore. fuck that! if u realli cared for me in the first place, then u will never do tat to me at all..

perhaps it was not meant to be.. or maybe jus push everything to me.. i am such an idiot once more.. regret so many things now.. straining family ties? fuck that! buying air ticket for jus one nite?? stupid ass! paying for ur phone??? slap me please!! Expensive phone bills?? i deserve it!!!!!!!

why in the world am i doing stuff that i never do for any girl before in my life?? y did i change my principles for someone tat easily? someone whom i met less than a yr.. someone whom i dun get to meet often??

and to think that i told myself i can handle it all, everything is worth it.. haha.. wad a joke.. but well, it ended jus like how it started. all unexpectedly. i realised i like her when i wasn't planning to look for a gf. and i lose her when i wasn't prepared at all. wad a life~~ and well, for all i know, i might be the bastard again.. in her mom's eyes.. tat i jus dumped her like that.. well, not the first time, perhaps being misunderstood is my middle name.. and well, maybe i am already used to it.
but maybe add a new one to it, bastard idiot?? nicer?

i asked for it sometimes.. i know.. i couldn't help at all when u were under stress, under pressure.. if i couldn't help, the least i can do is not to add more pressure to u.. tat i couldn't do as well.. but for me, i was wrong tat i keep demanding to noe wads been bothering u, keep wanting to noe wad r ur problems rather than keeping to urself, getting angry at u for not telling me stuff.. making u tink tat u r not good enough for me.. yes.. i tink i am the one not good enuf for u. i am not good in anything.. nothing~~ i told myself before that i am not suitable to be in relationships.. and shld stick to my playing ways.. but even i never listen to wad i preach.. how can i expect someone else to listen to it then.. and now, i jus gotta force myself to get back to the happy-go-lucky ways tat i used to be and get rid of all those dreams that i weaved for myself the past yr.. ya.. i am a dreamer.. yes! i am good at dreaming... dreaming of some things tat can never be true.. dreaming of stuff to make myself sink deeper and hurt deeper and make myself scarred.. scarred for life indeed.. and yes.. i haf realli lost hope in someting tat i always haf hope for.. someting tat i always look forward to... and currently, i am lost.. realli lost.. lost my goal, lost the motivation to make big bucks. ya.. i shouldn't be like a leech.. sucking on to someting so tat i can stay alive.. my motivation in life should not haf been u.. but well, how often has it been this case tat we always noe we r going the wrong way, but we happily walk through it, knowing its wrong...

and yes, u've got me this time.. though its not the first time.. but this time is a BIG time.. and this time is a bad time.. jus when i need support, when i am down, i got a big step on me to sink even deeper.. and i canot tell anyone.. no one.. and true.. i never tell anyone abt wadever shit.. becos i realised.. the care and concern tat i received.. could be superficial, fake.. but even though they could be fake, i still appreciate it for bothering to fake it in the first place..

this is life.. my life.. my fucked up life. and no one can understand wad i am going through and fuck! i am realli hurt. and hiding it hurts even more.. i realli feel so lost!!! argh~ there is no where, no one i can turn to.. except this blog.. this website.. this dead place..

my fave song!! been looking for the title for more than a mth!!

2006-08-05T07:01:00.000+08:00

a song by potato that i like very much!! very nice!!! i finally found it on youtube.. i only know tat its by potato but i have no idea wad is the title.. and so i jus listen to all the songs by potato on youtube.. and finally, i found it!! hahaha!!! so happy.. now i am trying to get the mp3 of this song.. and also the ringtone!! yeah~~~

click on this link to listen to this song pls.. you will like it!! although i duno the meaning of the lyrics, but i assume tat its a love song.. a romantic one i guess..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9636aOHd4I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qtC-9qYbkhU

out in the sea~~

2006-08-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

taken in the waters between singapore and johor bahru.. the lights u can see here are actually the customs checkpoint at tuas checkpoint. the second link. its actualli a veri nice view but i haf no idea why it turns out not tat perfect on the camera..

the green light u can see in this pic.. is the only thing we can see at nite when we are driving our boats.. and tats the onli thing we can follow each other and not get lost..

me and my men, out in the sea. thats wad we do and thats wad i am gonna do every year for the next 10 yrs... boringzzzz

cruising around whilst waiting for our mission. riding around so we can get some wind.. its almost evening time.. and we are waiting for nightfall..

other pics taken during marvin's birthday

2006-08-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

as u can see, marvin usually takes pics with the girls.. so we just haf to entertain ourselves..

photos taken.. marvin's birthday 29th july 2006

2006-08-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

peeling..

2006-07-29T11:07:00.000+08:00

can see my peeling skin??

before and after

2006-07-29T10:03:00.000+08:00

my right arm... hurts..

hey people..

been a tough week. really tired throughout.. physically and mentally. body aching.. hurt, injured. and the busier schedule makes me miss yui more.. haizz.. but she is busier this week also..

i took some photos.. haha!! of myself.. not taken any yet of the camp. i will take some when i will be going out to sea next week. :)

reservist~~

2006-07-27T02:00:00.000+08:00

went back for my 1st in-camp training since i ord in year 2004. well, its quite a good feeling actually.. to re-live the happy but tough memories, physically challenging missions, and well, see some people i met during the 2 yrs in army.

alrite, i will try to capture some images in camp... and hope i dun get caught. and i let u see my skin colour difference when i upload the pics into my comp. i am now a red lobster.. even my face hurts when i wash it.. guess its gonna peel badly.. :(

stay tuned ya~~

whats becoming of us..

2006-07-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

didn't mean things to be like this.. i just canot hide my feelings. if i dun like it, its just not me to act like i like it. however, i know thats what u want. that has been your plan and that was what u have been looking forward to. u are extremely disappointed when your colleague is not gonna be staying with u in that apartment. and you want to move to that apartment so much that you are willing to pay double than the initial amount you were supposed to pay.. jus to stick to the initial plan. all these, jus shows that you are very determined.. and its useless for me to say anything.. or to try to dissuade you. i know~ all i can do is to let you follow your plan and support you. i will try to support u. hopefully nothing changes even when u stay out. even if there are changes, then hope its not that drastic.. i will try.. try to express my support.. tats the least i can do.

hope you have really considered the consequences and good that you are sure of what u wan. jus dun do things out of impulse and stay out just for the sake of staying out. i luv u and i will support u. but i jus wan to make sure u have thought of it thoroughly..

misc photos.. work~

2006-07-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

photos..

2006-07-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

ok.. tonite, i am uploading photos from my phone to my comp.. tats y this sudden input of photos onto the blog.. :)

as for my bangkok trip this time, not many photos, cos i was trying out taking videos for a change.. haha! but i dun realli wana upload them to youtube or watever websites.. but i duno how else i can upload for u people to see..

but its ok, its for my memory sake then..

shall upload other photos taken even earlier.. pics tat i took when i went to an italian restaurant along prinsep street with my colleagues after work.. and some miscellaneous pics..

hon, sleep tight.. fun dee..

2006-07-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

bangkok hooo!!!

2006-07-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

crazy japs!

2006-07-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Enjz-SGnsI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJOweEVMjz4

bangkok..

2006-07-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

came back from bangkok on monday afternoon.. had not much sleep due to the world cup final last nite.. and the flight was 1.20pm.. gotta be prepared to check out at 10am..

well, will post about the trip later on.. haha! good to see yui again.. though we met jus abt a month ago.. but becos i am not able to go bangkok during september for our one yr anniversary due to my new job training period, then i jus gotta go now, jus before i go back to camp for my annual in camp training.. lets hope i survive! haha

going back to work and hopefully get more sales.. yeah! and earn more before i leave. well, am viewing some japanese clips which are really funny.. jus canot stop laughing!! will post them here later on after i shortlist some of the funniest ones i saw..

well, and i will post the pics i took in bangkok.. not many i guess.. this time, i took mostly videos. and i haf no idea how to upload a video.. jus videos of siam square, and khaosan road, and a woman making my Roti.. nice dessert..

see ya! and miss u hon.

for u yui~

2006-07-03T06:56:00.000+08:00

hon, saw this clip on youtube.. people were saying this is a veri touching thai movie.. and nice song.. and i tink it should be quite popular ar.. put this up and let u haf a look.. and oh ya.. the day is breaking.. go sleep dee gwa. fun dee.. ruk khun mak.

numbers.. in thai (pom kid teung khun dta-lod way-la)

2006-07-03T05:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this could be pretty relevant for u people planning to go shopping in thailand.. i guess the numbers are the ones tat matters.. during the bargaining.. or jus listen to wat they r saying to the other shop assistant.. and hear wad they tell u in english.. to find out if they are actualli charging more..

well u gotta take note of the tones also..

1 = neung
2 = song
3 = sam
4 = see
5 = har
6 = hok
7 = jed
8 = bad
9 = gao (pronounced same as teochew/hokkien)
10 = sib
11 = sib et (dun pronounce 11 as sib neung ar.. tats a blunder i said to yui tat made her laugh.. )
12 = sib song

and the rest are jus 10 (sib) plus other number for eg. 15 (sib har)

20 = yee sib (not song sib ok?? )
and from here, 20 + (the number above)

30 = sam sib.. no difference.. all the way to 90++

100 = neung roi ( roi means hundred) gotta remember this also.. cos the prices over in thailand usualli are more than 100.. maybe for the food there is cheaper, so u wun hear this.. but for clothing wise, roi is perhaps more commonly used..

200 = song roi.. and so on..

1000 = neung pun ( pun means thousand)
all the way till 9000 ( gao pun)

10000 = neung muen. (tricky.. dun pronounced muen as how u pronounce english words.. thai pronounciation is not the same.. say them like english and u be making thais laugh.. jus like wad i did to make yui laugh.. unintentionally though.. )

listen to the sound clips of the correct pronounciation first.. and repeat after them.. tats wad i did.. and this website is some sort like the thai language standard of children.. jus the basics la..

http://www.learningthai.com/numbers.html

if u r still interested, u people can go on and explore the website.. perhaps u might be more gifted in the language and master the basics much faster than me.. i am already considered a failure.. cos perhaps i was too complacent, as yui can speak good english.. and i dun see the need for learning thai.. but well, since she can speak some chinese also, i shld learn some thai as well.. anyway, no harm picking up basics of another language.. learning to speak the language is much easier than writing it.. i will die if i have to learn to write it.. might take me a few years to write..
by the way, this is useful also.. about telling the driver road directions in thai.. useful for directing the driver, cos the driver might not noe the way to the hotel and u noe the way?? anyway, from my experience, knowing the directions in thai do helps.. learn how to say straight on.. turn right, left, etc..
http://www.learningthai.com/directions.html

have fun learning.. and hope my efforts to learn the basic thai pays off.. khun kid teung pom mai??

yui, khun na-ruk mak. pom kid teung khun tung kuen.. phom chop roi yim kong khun..

pom jing jai gup koon. ya ting pom. pom yoo mai dai ta mai mee koon.... :)

fun dee na.. do lae dtua eng duay na. la gon..

been away ar~~

2006-07-03T05:24:00.000+08:00

yui was away to another province to visit her grandpa.. and i haf been idling over the weekend.. life's not so bad when there is still soccer to watch.. although i lost money.. but it kept me occupied. sunday, and i was bored to tears.. so boring~~ and now, in the wee hours in the morning, i am learning thai online.. haha.. to prepare myself for the next trip to bangkok.. equip myself to talk some thai.. been a year since i have been frequenting thailand.. and quite embarassing to say that i am still not improving.. or maybe learnt no thai at all.. haha.. maybe my thai is not worth mentioning..

gotta go thru some intensive thai language training..

kid teung na.. khor thot, i was so engrossed with the online thai learning tat i forgot to msg u when i got home.. ruk khun. La gon~~

daddy yankee.. dun understand wadda hell he singing..

2006-07-03T05:19:00.000+08:00

enjoy! nice but dun-understand-a-single-shit song... jus dance along to it la!

thoughts..

2006-06-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

perhaps i am not a gd bf.. i just seem to make u unhappy so easily.. and hard for me to make u happy. going the wrong way ar..

perhaps i guess i was too controlling or too demanding or maybe just short tempered.. i am not able to do the things tat i expect from u.. not able to lead by example.. this is a major fault of mine. and yes, i admit it.. i am guilty.

i guess its really time for me to wake up my bloody idea and maybe just change for the better. i was perhaps too protective? and yes, for the last time.. i promise.. i will not demand things that i canot do.. one more time this happens, it jus proves that i am someone who dun deserves your love at all.. jus do watever, dun wana see u getting upset and sad.. or in tears.. its just too hurting.. for both.

we've got together long enough to know each other well, i dun wana keep doing something stupid tat will jus keep making u unhappy.. if u r reading this, hope u have already gotten better from ur headache.. hidden ur puffy eyes... and ready to forget about the requests that i have made.. telling u to call me to inform me where u be going, etc.. these will not happen anymore.. cos maybe most importantly for this relationship to be a happy one, both shld be happy.. i dun derive happiness or laughter making u call when u dun wana inform me.. but it makes u feel compelled to do it.. and results u being unhappy..

watever it is.. it's passed and well, hope u stay happy..

11th june 2006. the singapore zoo

2006-06-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

the giraffe. quite short by the giraffe's standard. but slightly taller than me.

a sleeping rhino.. napping after playing in the mud.

the old tortoises.. here since forever.. and they still look cute.. they haven changed. but i have changed. from a cute little kid to a man with white hair, protruding belly. argh~~

the zebras.. wad can i say about them.. hmm, jus feel tat i see them everyday on the roads.. nuttin fascinating abt them.

the climbing monkey.. dun really noe the name of the monkey.. jus call it black monkey.. haha

singapore trip 10th june to 12th june 2006

2006-06-10T18:24:00.000+08:00

yui was here on 10th june.. reached at about 9.45pm by jetstar asia. hmm, as usual, i was there waiting for her, waiting for her to reach here.. safely.. and sending her to the hotel..did nuttin much the first day, jus went for dinner.. and.. having an early nite rest so tat we can wake up for the zoo! haha.. finally~ 2nd attempt to go to the zoo after the october trip failed.

took some pics.. with my camera. :)

view the pics up above.. :)

nice sad song..

2006-06-04T03:12:00.000+08:00

this song goes out to the broken hearted.. or once broken hearted.. or anyone who appreciates nice music.. :)

hope u people like it.. cos i like it veri much.. feel that the lyrics are pretty meaningful but sad.

本来 by 同恩:

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

very touching indeed.. struck a chord somewhere in your heart? well, enjoy the music people~

the clip that caught the whole hongkong's attention

2006-05-30T05:14:00.000+08:00

imagine this clip appearing on hongkong news, being reviewed by psychiatrist, producers.. regarding the stress level of the uncle in the clip.. and the stress level of hongkongers.. but dammit.. if i am that young guy being scolded in the clip.. i would haf beaten tat old man halfway.. damn... scolding the mom..

but hongkongers are creative ar.. they are able to create a karaoke version of this clip.. supposedly serious clip.. but they are able to make it in sync with sammi cheng's dance song.. haha.. tats a good one to defuse the tension..

the original clip.. with subtitles ar!! haha.. english and chinese subtitles! efficient hongkongers..

this is the karaoke version.. try to sing along.. haha..

sexy english..

2006-05-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

good clip..

2006-05-28T15:22:00.000+08:00

hilarious!!!

2006-05-28T15:08:00.000+08:00

overly excited..

2006-05-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

duno wads come over me... ever since the talk of u coming over for a visit started abt a week back.. there r countless upsets.. yes, i admit, most of it is due to me.. perhaps i am asking too much.. maybe because i jus haf too high hopes.. and anyway, i shld be used to it tat every trip to singapore is not smooth sailing.. and i jus canot figure out why i canot be as nonchalant as before.. i really wish i can be that indifferent.. should tell myself that, if u r here, then good.. if not, then so be it.. if u wana go anywhere.. jus go.. no big deal.. not my problem.. u dun haf to bother abt me.. i dun need to hear from u.. i dun care if u dun call.. i dun care if u r busy at work or busy chatting or going out after work and not a call from u.. whereas, now... i am the one.. the losing one.. being a loser.. i need attention.. what the hell is wrong with me now?

think its the tension.. the fear.. the expectations taking its toll on me.. am i being overly anxious in the preparations of the trip?? or isit becos for fear of acting like an idiot, being the onli one who is so excited about choosing the rooms, the location.. and hoping u can enjoy ur stay here?? i duno wads wrong with me.. since u already said u jus trust my taste or perhaps.. tats wad u say.. maybe u jus canot be bothered with wherever u stay.. cos ur purpose is to visit me.. but i feel the stay can be better with a better room.. and without ur opinion.. i dun realli noe if tat room is good or not..

anyway.. i given up on choosing the rooms.. got a few enquiries sent out.. jus short of making payment.. didn't wana prepay the rooms first.. scared that u might not like it.. argh~~ duno y i even bother.. when u, the visitor dun bother.. shit~~ i am becoming like a woman.. worrying about all these kinda things.. hate this feeling.. being the crazy one..

well, since the air ticket is already booked, jus short of the room.. and to avoid the rooms being fully booked like last time, hope u can go browse through the rooms tat u like.. saw a few.. which is not tat expensive and not bad.. but i never keep track.. and i tink even if i sent u an email with all the hotel names, u will jus leave it to me in the end.. and i will be at a loss again.. if its for jus anyone i canot be bothered with.. i tink i jus book the cheapest room i see.. i dun bother about the room decor, the facilities, the location or whatever.... perhaps i bother too much... wants the best quality i can get with the small budget i haf..

so basically, wads to blame??? me being poor..

krung thai bank advert

2006-05-24T12:41:00.000+08:00

viagra advert..

2006-05-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

feeling romantic.. haha

2006-05-23T04:08:00.000+08:00

read the lyrics and realised that the lyrics are actualli so mushy throughout the whole song.. thought its onli jus some parts.. haha! but well, i guess this kinda songs are good to serenade to a girl.. and win the heart?

Daniel Bedingfield: If you're not the one.. (extract)

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far awayBut I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

straight

2006-05-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

had a chat.. well, things are going back on the fast track.. well, good things to note: our squabbles are never about anyone else.. or any third party.. meaning no one is significant enough to cause any small squabbles.. but basically arguments due to perhaps stress? or misunderstanding? or unable to get hold of each other when we r missing each other? or perhaps jus one main reason: missing each other too much that we canot bear to quarrel with each other when we meet up.. every meeting is a great time.. cos the time is so precious.. we should not waste our time quarrelling.. well, tats wad we did.. we treasure our time together.. and store them well in our memory banks.. and flip thru them.. reminding ourselves of the happy moments.. and how hard it was for us to get together.. tats how all obstacles get tackled.

i am glad that she can be understanding.. even until now.. though she has kinda like grasped how i am realli like.. got nuttin much to hide anymore.. nuttin mysterious to her anymore.. haha.. and yet, we still luv each other..

damn .. this post is too mushy.. so unlike me.. but on extremecrap, anything can be written here.. cos no one pays attention.. except us.. :)

happily in our own world

regret

2006-05-21T05:40:00.000+08:00

i dun like quarrels.. or squabbles. or arguments.. or confrontation.. or watever causes me unhappiness. well.. i did someting wrong todae.. i made yui angry.. me and my frens couldn't get any tickets for the movie.. all the movies were full.. and left with jus "over the hedge" and tats a cartoon! man~~ and we dun wana watch the midnite timing.. so well, we went to play lan.. although i duno how to play.. i was basically jus in the game and getting killed. was trying to get the hang of the game.. but hmm.. no avail. then yui called. and i missed it. ya. its my fault. but i could not jus walk off and leave the comp there ar.. and also, the place is too noisy to hear her talk.. so i jus waited until we r done.. and when heading for food.. then i called her immediately after i leave the noisy place.. hmm.. its too late.. she is sleeping and sleeping angrily..

tried explaining.. but well, no use.. perhaps my reason is not a good one.. not good enough to make her forgive.. and the anger it caused her was so great tat it made her make up her mind of not coming to singapore to see me anymore.. tat hurts.. honestly.. didn't wana quarrel.. duno wad to say.. all i can tink of was.. y is it tat everytime when the time nears for her to come over.. its alwaes not smooth sailing.. ?? and i feel tat i am at the losing end.. is it becos i keep wanting her to come over badly? or i jus wana see her? i dun mind going over.. but she wana come over tis time.. for a short break..

is this my weakness? or a winning strategy for her.. ? one weakness tat she can catch hold of.. so tat i can always be on my toes.. until she is finally here?? i realli duno.. but i was quite sad.. tat this same phrase of "i am not going over singapore anymore" is being repeated again.. i guess its jus me.. pinning too much hopes on this visit.. maybe tats why people used to say.. telling me not to be complacent.. and take things for granted..

all i noe is tat i am feeling lost.. how come things turn out this way becos of missed calls. and i returned the calls in abt one hr.. not tat i totally disappeared or unreachable for 3 hrs.. 3 hrs is considered too long.. but 1 hr?? yes.. i am wrong.. but is it realli tat serious? i wun bother to explain if i dun bother.. and yes.. its realli bothering me a hell lot.. this jus shows how much this trip means to u.. its jus another holiday short break for u.. but its not the case for me.. it means much more to me..

ya.. i got a bad temper. but i can curb it for u.. i would haf flared up at others for saying stuff like tat to me.. but i wud not do tat to u.. there is no point.. dun see the reason. cos i am in the wrong first.. since u r not coming over.. then so be it.. no point forcing u.. or me begging u to come.. its jus not me.. and well, not gonna force u.. u can jus do wad u like.. or wad u feel is the best for u..

lastly. i can say tat i am regretful.. of playing some game and missing the call.

just wads the reason..

2006-05-19T05:01:00.000+08:00

well.. shawn's going bangkok tomoro.. actualli its later today in the afternoon.. its some sort of like a birthday celebration for his gf.. bringing her on a trip.. for her shopping etc etc.. a shopping trip as a form of present.. well.. at least its not a physical gift.. its the memories.. the effort.. tats most important and valuable in this gift.

and yup.. raymond's there also.. 2 days earlier than them.. with his long leave again.. oh.. not been communicating with him in any way.. there has been no reply from him even from msn since few weeks before the trip.. saw from his nick tat he is going bangkok.. and after few days, nick changed to bangkok dream falling apart.. asked him abt y is it falling apart.. but no answer.. then few days later.. it became bangkok dream flying high.. asked him abt when he is going.. again no answer.. the onli times he msged me was to ask for phone numbers of his thai sec sch fren.. whom i have not been contacting.. and lost my contacts when i lost my phone.. well.. i noe he saw my msgs.. cos he contacted my gf thru msn also.. so tats how i noe tat he was actualli online.. so well.. he is contacting people in bangok but jus dun wana reply to my msgs.. i haf no idea y.. tried to think if my msgs meant any ill will.. but could not find any good reason.. so well.. wad the heck. couldn't be bothered anyway.. perhaps i am not needed.. or of no value.. canot help him with anything also.. since i won't be in thailand also..

yui's high sch passed away.. i am not really sure of the cause.. but well.. after she went for the funeral, i can tell that she was pretty down.. i am not really good at consoling or making people happy.. and i dun tink talking rubbish at tat time is able to cheer her up. tat could onli make her tink tat i am insensitive and am pretty much a jerk to be joking at tat time.. so well.. i did tried to console.. but well not sure if it helps.. jus wish tat she can get over it and well.. life goes on.. jus cherish life and people around u.

also, wish tat shawn and his gf can have a happy time in bangkok.. shopping, sightseeing etc..

kinda happy tat things are smooth sailing at the moment.. sales doing pretty well.. targets met.. relationship stable.. but not gonna take it for granted.. gotta make use of this good luck at this moment to garner more sales.. hopefully.. :) but one thing's for sure.. with more sales, i get more paperwork.. and more untidy.. and more forgetful!! i even forgot my customer's gift form.. for his free handphone.. and although i remembered letting him sign the paper.. i canot find it anywhere in my bag now.. argh~~ and i took down another customer's account number.. and i thought i had already written it down in the form.. and now, as i am preparing the forms for submission tomoro.. i realised i had not written it down.. and i haf no idea where i had written it.. for sure its gone now.. could be on the way to the rubbish collection centre now.. kinda embarassed to let the customer make one more trip.. shall try through contacts in the bank to find out the account number for me. or else.. damn!! ask the customer to make her 3rd trip.. and show her tat i am absent-minded.. perhaps these days, i am more concentrating on getting sales.. and losing focus on the paperwork.. gotta strike a balance.. my money doesn't come if there are errors in the paperwork.. and all efforts wasted.. in this line.. no such thing as half effort.. jus gotta follow it through all the way.. till the end.. till the money ends up in my bank account.. :)

well.. another hopeful day.. have an appointment with an existing customer taking up one more plan.. yeah.. a big one!! hopefully no last minute changes.. and although my personal target has already been met.. shall make it higher and try to reach it by tomoro.. and take the saturday off.. or else.. saturday morning.. its gonna be another tiring work day.

jus went for coffee session with marvin.. then received a call from my childhood friends.. friends i known for 19 years.. staying around my neighbourhood for the gathering in another part near my neighbourhood.. we were trying to finalise our overseas trip after our last yr trip to bangkok in june 2005. this time.. we r going to chiangmai.. we were just trying to strike a chord. some days whereby everyone is free to make it.. tentatively, its july 15th to 17th or 18th.. i went with them to on my first trip to bangkok.. simply enjoyable.. getting drunk.. clubbing.. shopping.. exploring foreign places.. taking loads of pics.. etc etc.. this time.. hoping tat yui can join me.. ya.. i noe she will be working on weekdays.. i dun mind her joining me over the weekend.. jus dun wana wait for so long before i can see her again in aug.. although most likely, she will be coming in june.. but well.. canot stand being away from her too long.. one month is long enough.. 2 months its a torture.. more than 2 months.. and the small squabbles will start coming in.. think we tried it before.. not good.. dun wana haf it again.. so jus waiting for her to come over in june.. and watch world cup matches with me?? hehehe

oh, another thing to add.. jayen is coming back in june ar.. not for a good reason though.. family stuff.. but well, at least he is coming back.. one more kopi kaki.. one more clubbing kaki.. and ya.. sadly, u are gonna miss your sydney trip.. but well.. sydney is always there..

lastly.. goodnite.. gotta rush my proposals for submission.. so tat its still in time for inception by end of this month! yippee.. kaching... ( cash machine sound) i smell the money..

bodyslam...

2006-05-15T04:44:00.000+08:00

havin fun while working

2006-05-15T04:09:00.000+08:00

the 3 musketeers

the little girl gets bullied happily.. weird ar?

During roadshow.. taking photos.

eeks.. showing off her braces and specs on monday.. our paperwork day..

the 2 girls left in our team.

at hougang mall roadshow.

oldest in the team.. but a garfield lookalike..

long time no blog...

2006-05-15T03:58:00.000+08:00

well.. yui is coming over.. although the date is not fixed yet, but at least the plans are more or less fixed.. she'll be here tentatively 10th june to 12th june. so well, dun haf to ask me out on these days and i am most likely not gonna be appearing online on msn also. and no posts on this blog during this period also.. but definitely this time, pictures will be uploaded after this period.

oh.. guess later i shall post some pics i took at work. since we r bored. haha.. showing u the fun people in our fun team.

hmm.. now, where shall i bring yui to this time? marina south for steamboat and grill buffet? zoo? argh~ singapore is so boring.. nuttin much to do.. perhaps i will go check out the activities showing at esplanade.. perhaps there could be someting interesting during tat period.

currently, very broke.. waiting for payday to come this friday.. been waiting this day for so damn bloody long.. i love the 19th of every month.. tats when my dreams get fulfilled, my bills get paid, my plans carried out and debts cleared.. never mind.. just tahan awhile longer.. its coming soon..

Bird Thong Chai!!! a must-know thai song...

2006-05-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

peck palitchoke ayanaputra... mai mee krai roo

2006-05-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

try this

2006-05-08T04:28:00.000+08:00

hey people.. try this tarot reading.. do ur shuffling of the cards online and they will show u 3 cards.. although i dun realli noe wad its talking abt.. but it is fun..
http://astrology.indya.com/tarot/tarot_sub.html

and this also.. numerology.. tells u loads of details about ur characteristics.. ur lifestyle and wad industry u r suited or watever.. dun haf to believe.. jus see if wad they saying has any truth in it or not.. so far, for me.. it seems pretty true.. not all.. cos there are some is for the future.. and some is the present..
http://www.willmaster.com/numerology/ideas.html

enjoy.. and tell me if they are telling the truth or not..

ronaldinho.. stylo!!

2006-05-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

damn impressive!!

2006-05-07T05:07:00.000+08:00

luo zhi xiang.. SHOW.. playing in toilet..

2006-05-04T04:15:00.000+08:00

stick with u..

2006-05-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

daniel powter - bad day

2006-05-04T02:25:00.000+08:00

Jay Chou - Feng

2006-05-04T02:22:00.000+08:00

kiss goodbye.

2006-05-04T02:14:00.000+08:00

Wang Li Hong.. heard this on radio in bangkok

2006-05-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

great time with u..

2006-05-03T02:41:00.000+08:00

jus got back from bangkok.. yes.. again.. and still not sick of it.. well, the places are no longer new to me.. but the language yes. its still a barrier. but yui is my translator. haha! my lifetime translator? making me lazy to learn the language..

reached bangkok on 29th april about 7.30pm.. by tiger airways. first time taking their flight from budget terminal. well.. should haf taken some pics while in the terminal to let u guys noe how it looks like and how it operates.. basically, it has everyting u need.. money changer, toilet, water cooler, snack bar, DFS, and tats all.. jus tat its in smaller scale.. and well.. u wun be rushing to board the flight like u used to.. u will be in a queue.. but there will not be a tunnel leading u to the plane door.. u will be going out to the runway, to walk up the stairs to the plane.. jus like how those politicians always come down the plane, waving their hands? got the picture? and ya, a good thing about this terminal is tat the processing of our singapore passport is all DIY.. u scan ur own passport, go thru a gate, scan ur thumbprint, then go thru another gate.. and tats it! u dun haf to wait in queue for the immigrations officer.. and its easy to use.. and there are immigrations officers nearby to help out.. but well.. if u r the sort who alwaes prefer the traditional way, and averse to new better changes, then jus stick to the queue thingy.. and queue with the foreigners..

at bangkok airport, yui is there.. but this time, the wait is shorter.. cos tiger airways is always punctual when i took it.. unlike airasia.. always delayed.. and delayed by about half hour!! was damn hungry when i reach bangkok.. and i haven changed any thai baht yet.. so well.. i depended fully on yui.. :) helped me pay for my dinner, my cab fare, my hotel charges.. and i checked in without much hassle.. but still, returned her the money the next day after i changed all my money..

marvin joined me on the second day.. by the time he is at the hotel, i am already at MBK with yui, and already had lunch.. and already done some shopping.. haha.. not waiting.. and i even had my hair cut.. which is not done properly.. :( but well.. its ok.. i noe where to go for a better hair cut next time.. i will go siam square for my hair cut.. well will jus post the pics and well, the pics with the poorer resolution is becos i was using the camera in front, tats onli 0.3megapixels.. pardon the blurriness... but well.. honestly, i like the photos taken with the back camera.. tats 2 megapixels.. quite clear.. comparable to a digital camera..

bangkok starbucks.. 2 bored guys..

2006-05-02T03:38:00.000+08:00

took a break after some hard shopping before we head for the airport.. the weather is hot.. so well.. we took a break longer than we planned for..

the street... obviously..

starbucks.. can tell we r bored?

taken by marvin himself.. vainpot

i think i look weird.. should be the hair.. and the fatter face.. damn...

leaving on a jet plane..

2006-05-02T03:29:00.000+08:00

went to meet yui at her workplace for lunch during her lunch break.. chilling in her office for awhile after tat..

sick yui.. falling sick.. again~~

snap shot.. showing off her tweety bird cup?

meanwhile we spotted a suspicious character at a corner of her office.. and found out tat its her colleague.. so i jus wana take a pic of him incase yui might need this pic in future as evidence.. ermm.. stealing? haha!! jus crapzz.. i was jus talking rubbish.. but well.. tats her colleague..

mayday

2006-05-01T03:12:00.000+08:00

waiting outside fuji at central pinklao.. love this pic the most.. yui looks so nice in this pic i tink.. her hair, her smile, the angle.. all looks great.. :) guess this is the best one.. the best among all the snapshots..

look? she is so happy even though we haven stepped into Fuji for our feast!! note: the guy beside her is her younger brother.. violinist.. in the making..

another snapshot.. taken in her house.. on her sofa.. the familiar sofa that i can usualli see last time when she on her webcam at home..

Take 1, my face seems red.. perhaps i am shy..

take 2, my smile is weird.. looks so fake.. got a problem with smiling at the camera.. jus canot be natural. tats y i canot be an actor.. hehe.. and yui's hair jus came down at the wrong moment..

give up on smiling.. and yes.. this is the final one.. looks good also.. but i look fat!!! argh~~ and i am realli fatter.. shit!

reunion of the lovers?

2006-04-30T02:58:00.000+08:00

not veri well taken on the cab.. cos the phone moved when i snapped it.. well.. the road was bumpy la.. but at least our faces still can be seen.. tats good enough..

Yui's sideview.. well, i was bored on the cab.. so jus take a snapshot.. :) not bad ar..

my new haircut turned out wrongly.. well.. i tink the salon at mbk is not realli into fashion? i duno y.. maybe its the communication problem.. and damn.. there goes my sideburn.. even after i told her not to cut it.. or shave it or watever.. and yui told her also.. and she still did it.. and yui told her again and asked y how come she shaved it, she told yui tat i wanted it.. damn~~ but its too late.. its already gone. it will be back soon.. well.. this pic is taken with the front camera.. 0.3 megapixels.. see the difference.?

forgetful

2006-04-24T03:45:00.000+08:00

well.. realised that i have become kinda forgetful these days.. i keep forgetting things and not jus trivial ones.. but almost anything..

i forgotten wads the amount that my customer wana invest with me.. and i submitted the wrong amount.. i forgotten it even though she just called me like ten minutes ago and i still submitted the other amount that she signed also... i forgotten many customers' faces and even though i jus met them the day before and they visited me again the next day to change some details, i was like staring at them until pondering why do they keep looking at me.. until they tell me they took up a plan with me yesterday then i remember.. i told yui that i will call her in half an hr just now.. but she called me back after an hr and i can tell that she was pissed.. but well.. i haf to admit that if i was in her shoes, i will be unhappy also.. and i did it twice in one day.. canot blame her for being mad at me.. and i know that if she did that to me.. i will be mad.. perhaps madder..

sorry.. i really haf a problem with my memory these days.. perhaps too many stuff in my head.. targets, deadlines.. and especially at month end.. i keep calculating in my mind how many cases i haf closed, how much commission i shld get.. what stuff i still owe to which customer.. and i really didn't mean it if any thing like this happens.. if i did not want to call u back, i would not have even bothered to tell a time.. and yes.. i am wrong.. cos if i said half hr, i should jus call in half hr.. really no excuses this time.. totally my fault.. speechless.. no arguments.. can onli wait for her to simmer down.. and i dun realli wish tat she will adopt the tit-for-tat approach and do the same thing to me jus to make me understand the feeling.. cos i can already imagine how i will feel.

final word.. SORRY.

TUES!!!

2006-04-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

i wana call u!! ar.. feeling so lost now.. unable to call u.. anyway.. i already sent an email to u.. telling u my new phone number.. call me ok?? in case i am not able to call u yet.. or u came back earlier.. and u noe wad?? when i bought the phone, they gave me a prepaid card as well.. for free.. and the IDD rate for calling thailand is even cheaper than the one i am using now.. :) i can call u more then.. to make up for the past few days.. feeling so terrible.. its just like an addiction.. having the withdrawal symptoms now.. whole mind is full of images of u...

ar.. others might feel its mushy.. but well.. when i am down.. i guess u r the only antidote..

well, just gotta accept fate..

2006-04-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

well, i received a call from her finally.. just when i was on the way to JB.. on the bus.. approaching malaysia. and well.. i am glad tat she finally called and she is safe.. and well, at least i can hear her voice.. kinda selfish cos tat was the last time i hear from her.. tat was on thursday nite.. 13th april.. until now.. sunday nite.. ermm.. actualli monday morning.. wee hours.. 17th april.. and this will be the case until 18th april.. on tuesday.. when she is back..

well, basically, i have lost all contacts cos i lost my phone in KL.. damn.. just my luck.. and honestly, i duno when i lost it.. and i can onli blame myself.. cos i feel leaving it in the hotel room is pretty unsafe, so i brought it out with me, although i never apply for auto-roam.. so basically its jus an empty phone.. and i lost it.. and lost the contacts, the precious pictures i took, and the mp3s in it.. so i tink perhaps i lost it while clubbing? or when i was sitting down somewhere?? no point thinking abt it.. the fact is i lost it..

so now.. its the same feeling back again.. and now, i canot call yui.. not becos i dun remember her number.. i always remember it.. her mobile phone number.. but not the china hotel number.. and well, i think she has been trying to call me these days.. especially tonite, since she noes i be coming back tonite.. and well, perhaps she will be shocked to hear tat the service has been terminated? hmm.. i just haf to wait for her to get back to bangkok, and call her.. after i bought my new phone.. should be tomorrow.. damn.. wad a trip!! haven lost any phone before.. gotta take some time for myself to calm down and let this loss settle in my mind..

wana talk to u badly.. especially when i am feeling so sad after losing the phone.. cos only u can cheer me up.. hope when u see this when u r back, u will understand y i couldn't call u for so many days.. and i will definitely call you on tuesday night.. although i dun really noe wad time u be back.. will jus keep trying.. kid teung khun mak mak mak mak.. jingjing..

letdown.. sleepy..

2006-04-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

waited last nite.. waiting for my phone to ring.. until 4am.. but it never ring.. beijing is in the same time horizon as singapore.. so i dun tink she is still working until 4am ar.. well.. shouldn't have hoped for anything.. just to prevent disappointment.. did it slipped her mind? i have no idea.. and have no way of contacting her.. i have lost her..

naah. dun wana think about anything anymore.. its affecting me.. need to give myself 2 tight slap to wake up my mind.. anyway.. leaving singapore tonite.. hopfully.. haha.. hope no more last minute changes.. if so, its really gonna make me mad.. for sure..

waiting and waiting..

2006-04-13T02:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. waited for her call last nite.. and yes.. she finally called at 3.30am.. just a short one.. telling me that she finally has some time to call me.. and she will call me again later.. then.. i waited till 4.30am.. which is her boarding time.. saying the flight is delayed.. well.. at 4.30am, i had thought that she would not be calling.. as its already her boarding time..

now, i am waiting again.. waiting for her to tell me she had reached beijing safely.. telling me hows her first day at beijing.. well, basically jus wana hear her call.. so well.. therefore i am still waiting..

?

2006-04-12T01:27:00.000+08:00

is there ever someone u met in this life that in order to be together, u can even bear the risk of falling out with your family? Is that considered silly? or just plain fairy tale? Is there really anyone who can do that? especially someone who is around my age, who is not really financially independent yet...

well, if u can do the above to seek the love of your life.. to pursue your dream of forming a family with someone u love.. but in order for tat dream to come true, u gotta strain your family ties.. worth it? hmm.. but wad if the person whom u r willing to do all these for, is not willing to do the same thing? how will u feel? do u feel like u were being kinda silly? or will u jus let it go.. and think its jus not meant to be.. and go back to mend the strained family ties.. which could be already beyond repair? hmm.. some questions to perk your brain up..

hmm.. some more questions.. how will u feel if u feel u r over-reliant on someone..? maybe put it in another way, someone has an effect on how ur mood will be.. the other person's actions, the way the person talk, the way the person behave... all have some kind of effect on how u will feel, react, behave and your mood.. How will u feel when u r affected easily by someone u love? what does it mean? will u kinda be upset at yourself for being so easily affected? does it also mean tat the person is someone who hold a significant place in your heart?

hmm.. but wad if its the other way round? wad if someone attached to u.. is very reliant on u.. and wadever u do easily affects the other person.. how wil u feel? will u feel very pressured? cos wadever u do, is linked to another person's mood. so in order not to feel guilty, u feel obliged to behave the way in order not to spoil the other person's mood? but, honestly, how will u feel about someone who is very reliant on u? will u feel tat the person loves u alot? or that person is such a leech? or that person should go get a life and stop bothering u?

many questions... but dun tink there is a perfect answer to all of them.. just wana write these questions out.. i duno for wad.. no reason for doing all these.. and i dun expect any answers for them.. cos i think there is no definite answer for all these.. well.. just give it a thought then..

right or wrong?

2006-04-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

some changes recently.. the original group to hatyai has been reduced.. as usual, those regular duasters are still doing the dua-ing.. last minute change of mind.. although hatyai was our initial plan and changed to kl.. and after some calculations, realised hatyai is still within budget.. but people just feel like going to boring expensive kl..

with the same budget, although more is spent on transport.. but the money for the budget we have can be spent more in hatyai compared to kl.. KL is just about the same standard as singapore.. not as cheap as people think.. but well.. duno how i should describe them... naive? naah.. its their choice.. they can relak here and enjoy the singapore good friday.. no right or wrong about this.. but just sick of having last minute play outs.. and so, we will jus go ahead with the plan or just stay home and sleep.. or maybe think of somewhere else.. but enough of these last minute dua-ing.. should learn my lesson now..

just wana go somewhere.. for a short getaway.. i tink i need a break to re-think about some stuff.. the path i wana take in life.. and to review the choices i haf made in life.. ar.. when will life ever be good to me? i canot recall when it was ever smooth for me..

yui is going china for her tour thingy in a few hours.. and only be back sometime next week.. she called earlier.. and we jus had a very very short chat.. and she said she wana go shower first to prepare to go to the airport soon.. and she will call me back after her shower.. but well.. till now, she still haven call.. :( called her jus now after waiting for so long.. but the voice over the other side jus said.. "busy.." hmm.. i have no idea how i should react about this response.. i know i should understand tat she will be busy sometimes.. but well.. she said she be busy from 12-1am.. tats y i called her at 11.35pm.. and she is already busy.. dun wana seem unreasonable.. but well.. just canot hide my disappointment.. especially when she will be gone for so many days..

seem unreasonable?? seem not understanding?? hmm.. just writing down my thoughts.. dun wana add more pressure to her.. especially when i am under pressure as well.. from other stuff besides my work..

by the time she finishes wad she gotta do.. it could be time to board the plane.. so well, not gonna wait for her call anymore.. cos it might take days for her to call me back.. or maybe next week? and i haf no way of calling her in china.. so well.. really helpless about this..

just enjoy urself there then.. and gdnite folks..